STILL HUNGRY?!?!

this looks good??????
this is why we do what we do
so we dont look like those fat hogs

put down your forks
smile through those hunger pains
puke till you see blood
we want to be thin and beautiful





your scale is your best friend
it tells you the bare truth
it lets you know that youre fat and horrid





want fat thighs
want a fat face
want fat dripping from all over your body
well then eat up fat fucking cow





i hope you enjoy your nasty greasy food
want more food?
cant live through the stomach pains
and the hunger pains
remember a second on the lips
for ever on the hips
you fucking obese pig



ana and mia are here to help you
not turn out like those fat pigs
yes it hurts
but if it was easy painless and effertless than everyone would be doing it

starve on and be strong
dont end up like a fat sloppy cow

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its a "White" thing

When the words "anorexia" "bulimia" and "eating disorder" come to mind people usually think of
a young white middle class female

but thats not the case
eating disorders affect all races all classes and all genders

if u havent guessed it by now

I am a black female
and ive struggled with anorexia and bulimia for a long time now

in my culture skinny isnt pretty
everyone wants a big butt and big boobs
and i dont want that i want to be tiny and thin

growing up i was forceed to believe that big is beautiful when thats wrong big is horrible i was a typical black girl i was what they call "thick"
but that wasnt for me i looked in fashion mags
and i would cry wishing i was like a skinny model

i had the height of a model
but there was something missing
i cant model at 175lbs
i cant even live at 175lbs

im unhappy in this body

my mother is over 200lbs and everyone tells me
you have your mothers genes youll never be skinny
so stop trying

but theyre wrong...

my mom caught me throwing up one day and she didnt even stop to think "oh my god my child is throwing up her food" she just said "are you sick...the stomach virus is going around you know"

i hear this over and over again
"black girls dont have anorexia"
"thats a white thing"

theyre all wrong
its so lonely
and its even harder
when you constantly have people
shoving "soul food" "chinese food" and "greasey chicken" in your face

if i told my family i had anorexia the first thing they would say is
"are you trying to be white or something?"

thank god i have the power and the control i need
of else i couldnt make it thru life

i let my family get to me i let them feed me all that junk i let them fatten me up

but not anymore.....

**update**
i got a job and i start working soon so i can finally buy my diet pills and laxatives
this job is gonna be a text of my strength
because im gonna be working at a fast food restaurant but ill be working thru dinnere time so i can always say i ate at work

this summer is gonna be different from last summer


im stronger.im better.and im wiser.

the pic is of me at 156lbs
next picture to go up will be me at 146lbs.

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i need your help

this disease is killing me
but i refuse to stop
i look in the mirror and just think of ending it all
im tired of losing then gaining
this is enough im fucking fed up
this isnt even a matter of being thin anymore
i addicted to ana and mia and i cant stop
i wont stop
if any of you girls wanna be ana buddies (fasting buddies, mia buddies, or just someone to talk to, or for some support and motivation) msg me or cmnt on this entry and i'll give you my cell number and my aim, yahoo, gtalk, and my msn
i know what this disease can do to a person
it isolates you
all you want to do is talk about it
but if you talk to the wrong person then youll lose ana for ever
no one desearves to be alone
so if you ever want to talk i'll be there for you
just like you should be there for me
bye loves.....<3

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Ana Boot Camp Diet (ABC Diet)

Day 1: 500 calories (or less)
Day 2: 500 calories (or less)
Day 3: 300 calories
Day 4: 400 calories
Day 5: 100 calories
Day 6: 200 calories
Day 7: 300 calories
Day 8: 400 calories
Day 9: 500 calories
Day 10: Fast
Day 11: 150 calories
Day 12: 200 calories
Day 13: 400 calories
Day 14: 350 calories
Day 15: 250 calories
Day 16: 200 calories
Day 17: Fast
Day 18: 200 calories
Day 19: 100 calories
Day 20: Fast
Day 21: 300 calories
Day 22: 250 calories
Day 23: 200 calories
Day 24: 150 calories
Day 25: 100 calories
Day 26: 50 calories
Day 27: 100 calories
Day 28: 200 calories
Day 29: 200 calories
Day 30: 300 calories
Day 31: 800 calories
Day 32: Fast
Day 33: 250 calories
Day 34: 350 calories
Day 35: 450 calories
Day 36: Fast
Day 37: 500 calories
Day 38: 450 calories
Day 39: 400 calories
Day 40: 350 calories
Day 41: 300 calories
Day 42: 250 calories
Day 43: 200 calories
Day 44: 200 calories
Day 45: 250 calories
Day 46: 200 calories
Day 47: 300 calories
Day 48: 200 calories
Day 49: 150 calories
Day 50: fast

Here's a personal tip that worked for me

Eat your calories after 5pm this will make sure you don't binge

Plan a meal cut it into 4 or 3 servings and eat them through out the day

Try not to over season your food the better it tastes the more you'll want

If u feel you're going to binge DO NOT CHEW & SPIT
Because once you taste the food trust me you will not spit

JELLO they have 0 calorie ones now its the best thing ever carry one with you everywhere when you feel like pigging out on some sweets just eat your 0 cal jello and the suger will boost your energy when you're feeling a bit week

Eat lots and lots of pomagranets you have to do so much work to pick out the little fruit that by time you're ready to eat it you're not hungry anymore

Get a good nights sleep with is a MUST the more your awake the more you think about food



Being thin feels good

im BACK!

I've been gone for a while yes I know

While I was gone I ate and ate and ate some more I went back to 174Lbs

Then one day I got on the scale and saw how much I weighed and I just stood there and cried my eyes out

But for some good news
I'm 150Lbs right now I lost 24Lbs and all it took was a bit of self control and my best friend ana

I wanna go down to 130Lbs bf school is out wish me luck

And I'm going on a 50 day diet its called the ABC Diet aka (Ana Boot Camp Diet)

Ill try to tell you gals about my day to day progress but if not ill get on here when I can <333333333333333333

Stay strong my pretties

Gone.

lately ive been soooo stressed
thats why i havent written a blog in a while
with school and my family
i gained 19lbs since my last blog
and i feel like i want to die

lately ive been thinking
that i need to retouch my relationship with ana and mia
they were my only friends this summer
and i dont want to leave them

im going to be gone for a while im not going to
write another blog till i loose 30lbs

so ill see you ladies then.....

its pretty

well
i like to keep myself busy
because it helps me get my mind off the hunger pains and stuff

so i decided to make like a banner
for my blog it looks really pretty

and i made my display picture a real pic of me
but i cropped out my face

i really like this blog
it gives me something to do
to keep my mind busy

i think im going to try to write a blog or two a day

and i have 3 new followers
i thought that this was just gonna be a blog
that only i read

i hope some of the stuff on my blog
helps you gals reach ur goals

and umm if u want
can u give some feedback on the new banner
i want to make my blog pretty
and entertaining so girls
can come on my blog and keep themselves busy

so they can reach their goal
thin.perfect.skill